AS I AM

Activate my hate, let it break til, it flame me

Its almost impossible to give, when you cant get, and its almost impossible to love when your hated. Especially in my condition. im living in a society where being your self, is illigal. I call it an ''unwritten rule''. Its all about being someone your not, only so you can fit into a community, and if you dont fit in, you need to build your own community. Belive me or not, doing that is a big responsibility. No im not expressin my anger, i just dont understand the system

In my younger days, i used the word ''hate'' alot, but neva meant it. I honestly never hated anyone in my life. Untill now.. that feeling '' hate ''  is so powerfull, its almost as if it takes control over your whole body, and it wants you to do things you,ve neva even think of. If you still dont understand my troubles, then youve neva felt hate, you might say you have, but trust me it comin at yah. Dont say i didnt warn you. Like i was saying, ive felt hated and I have hated, and its hard to get rid of, when you once in that situation. mabye im making too much outta nothin, or too little of something. i dont know.. all i know is i dont like this feeling is takin over me. Mabye im just weak, and im not strong enough to handle the truth of life.

Ive properly lived this fantasy life, in my younger days, were everyone was smilin, and eveyone is happy. Then puff all that disaperd and reality hit.  Life aint as easy for anyone, defiantly not for me.